This is a new year but it feels like Deja Vu from the previous. Is it upsetting that I am 21 years of age and feel although I have done so much, it never counts for anything. No matter how much of a fight you give, you will never slay the dragon.
Well, the good news is that every time someone pisses me off I resort into applying to new jobs. I am in a position in life right now where regressing is not an option for me. Its like should I go to school and work? Will my schedule and mind allow me to do both? The answer is no. As much wheel power I have I feel like I cannot. Which is crazy. I just feel like I am always needed by my family and the constant bullshit that happens. Im trying to just double up on jobs so that I can save enough money for a car. If I car I feel the ability to have more hustle.
I know everything that I want takes hard work instead of hard drinks.. lol. I just do not know where to start. I feel like a train without tracks and fuel. Im trying to find fuel within myself but I don't think this lil engine can anymore. All I can do is to continue to fight and try.
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